In an ever increasing world of do more, go faster, work more efficiently – I find more and more my space matters!
But, it is a box. I can touch all four walls by sitting in the center of it. Short walls, lots and lots of distractions by the flow of people around me, the copier, the lock and unlock of the door just a few feet away from me, the break room in front of me.People hanging over my cube wall that’s about 12 inches from me. Of course, at least I have walls!
So, I do like everyone says to do (as if this is some magic that will transport me to some place quieter) – I put my ear buds in. Stream Pandora – and click on my favorite station: Train.
For a few minutes, I am absolutely transported. My foot begins tapping, I’m moving my head to the beat a little bit…and my mind starts to clear and focus again. Then, the interruptions begin…
“Hey, sorry to interrupt you!” – first person stops at my desk. Oh, yes, of course, what do you need?
Phone rings. Yes, I’ll send that over to you.
Try again – ear buds back in.
“Do you know where so and so sits? Oh, sorry to interrupt you…” Oh, ok – who are you? Yes, I know where they sit.
Someone stops by to discuss a project. Yes, I already sent you an update – did you check your email yet? It’s ok, here it is.
I have to IM someone for an answer. Three other people ping me at once during that conversation. Whoah! Settle down there, Communicator.
Finally, everything stops again. Ok, now, where was I? Oh, yeah, ear buds – project. Go!
“Hey, hey, do you know where I can find…oh, sorry to interrupt you! Do you know how to use the copier?” Ha ha, yes, it looks easy but it is out to trip us up I just know it.
At this point, it’s only 8:15 AM. I give up. Just put the buds away – give into being available as needed. Learn to work focused in an unfocused space. But, at least I’m helping people…right? I mean, isn’t it rude to try to keep working with ear buds in when a living breathing person is standing in front of me?
Don’t get me wrong, I can do this. And, I love helping people. Some days it’s even fun to have a truly collaborative space. But, that’s if I don’t have to work on anything by myself – HA!
The question I keep asking myself: why do I look so cranky and irritated? Why does my head hurt all day? I am forgetting to breathe. In a culture of no privacy, all access I find I’m losing myself.
This introvert is craving space. Space to think and restore. I am energized in a quieter space.
Well, I find it a hollow place for me to be very long. Push, push, push. But, what am I working towards? I’m not advocating low accomplishments.
I’m simply saying my space matters. Your space matters.
Which has led me to truly evaluate: how do I give myself the space I need?
I can’t very well control every situation and have it molded to my personality. But, can I create enough space in my day that I can better handle the smaller spaces?
I read an interesting blog posting by Melody Ross (founder of the Brave Girls Club): I am taking a 90 day break from Facebook…
This got me thinking about all the stories I have yet to write that are swirling about in my head. All the art I’ve yet to release from my soul because I am still sitting here watching t.v. So, it may not be a Facebook break I need, but a break from things that do not add back into me.
I know that I know, I have so much in me wanting to get out – good things, inspired things. I just need to give myself the space to release them.
I crave a quality of this life. Where time to think and consider a choice is valued.
Maybe I’m just a hopeless creative soul –
Lucky me. 🙂
If I could create a workspace for myself, I think it’d be a mix of an outdoor nook and an eclectic indoor room with a fire place, a coffee maker (of course!!) and splendid window with a view of the ocean or Irish rolling hills of trees. Twinkling white lights hung around the room, soft chairs with foot stools, a bed for Cleo.
Something akin to The Secret Garden meets Harry Potter – enchanting, you have to walk a trail to find it, duck around trees, but once you do – that’s where the magic happens.
And, you watch – I will have a space like this, maybe several.
So, let it begin TODAY: 2 hours on a Sunday afternoon of writing. Sketching. Fabulous. I feel my soul restoring already.
And, the idea of an art journal – fabulous! I am beginning this today as well. Mixes my love of words on paper with the expressions of my heart in the form of art.
Some creative spaces:
My favorite magazine: Where Women Create
What about you? What would your space look like? Or maybe you’ve already created it – please share! Send pics!